maybe im wrong in venting my frustration in a public way. This is a place to think and vent aloud, but it is an art site-no one will miss me if im gone, so i dont really care. i thought maybe id found someone who cared about me, i doubt that now. i suppose i do this in hopes that shell read this and maybe ill change her mind, and in part to completely vent what frustration ive built up stressing about this one girl. i hate it when things dont go how id like them to, but live and let live right? If im meant to be happy i will be...right? and if she is happy with me shell let me know...right? im so confused.... im worried that im going to go back to chemical restraints to my frustrations, how far down will i go this time, and will i recover? Ill live, no doubt, and ill come back from the edge again, just how close i get that worries me.